Humiliation: An Essay in Honor of Princess Kali

by sissy slave

The basis of shame is not some personal mistake of ours, but the ignominy, the humiliation we feel that we must be what we are without any choice in the matter, and that this humiliation is seen by everyone.

Milan Kundera, Immortality

Humiliation, especially ritualized humiliation, can make this sissy feel emotionally vulnerable and deepens the level of submission. The effect can be intoxicating and hypnotic. It is very similar to an increasing build up in an intense level of corporal punishment. At one point, the pain may almost be unbearable. After that point, however, the desire for more intense punishment is almost insatiable. Emotionally, it can feel as if the personality is being stripped away, exposing a very primitive, passive and simple creature. Physically, the body can shake and feel weak.

This sissy uses the phrase “ritualized humiliation” to describe scenarios that are like little dramatic plays (simple humiliation is ad hoc and whimsical like a casual spit in the face of the slave). For example, in one of this sissy’s humiliation fantasies, the key players involve several Dominant Females, a sissy and this sissy, as well as an audience. The setting is a play party. Three Dominant Females are sitting on a couch. They are gorgeous and dressed in sexy, fetish clothing. They see this sissy, beckon me over and engage me in conversation. The initially friendly conversation soon turns to verbal abuse as one of the three with a very sharp wit takes the lead. She starts by asking if this sissy has a girlfriend. She discovers that the sissy is not only heterosexual without any prospects, but is a virgin. She mockingly suggests that She can help this sissy correct this situation and find a “girlfriend”. At the party is another sissy. She calls her over. This sissy is then ordered to kiss and caress the other sissy. The situation escalates and the other sissy is ordered to raise her skirt while this sissy is ordered to kneel before the sissy. This sissy is then ordered to pull down her panties, to kiss and lick her balls as well as the shaft of her cock. Finally, as the cock gets hard, she is ordered to suck it.

While this is happening, the Dominant Females are laughing and making insulting comments. The other people at the party are also laughing. The element of verbal abuse, or what this sissy likes to refer as “verbal castration”, is essential. Words such as “sissy”, “fairy”, “pansy” “pathetic”, “cock-sucker”, “queer”, “faggot”, and “loser” are essential. They tell the sissy that this is her new girlfriend. They tell this sissy that she does not deserve to be with a real Woman and never will. This sense of inadequacy and exclusion is essential. Verbal humiliation can wound more deeply than strokes from a whip. It is best served with condescension, a mocking inflection in the voice and devilish laughter.

These rituals form an emotional prison. They are played over and over. Perhaps more than a prison, they create are an emotional blanket to which this sissy can retreat. The Dominant Females are untouchable and invincible. They are Goddesses and form the basis of humiliation in every such ritual. They are highly erotic, arousing a sexual desire that must not and cannot be fulfilled. The arousal is countered by threats of castration by the Dominant Females. Humiliation through threats of being castrated, forms an undercurrent in these scenarios. The formula is simple and ironic. This sissy is aroused and the consequence is “castration”. Ultimately, humiliation is irony.

serving the Princess

Serving the Princess is a great honor. She is an extraordinary Woman. She is a great beauty Who has an overwhelming presence. And the beauty of Her soul is even more amazing. She demands much from Her slaves (and you must be prepared to give all). And She deserves everything She desires and more, but what She emanates in return is what i can only describe as life itself (i know this may sound over the top, but it is true). Her happiness is your joy. i have never met anyone like Her and i have known many in the scene through many years. i actually feel renewed in service to Her. i feel like a true slave. Goddess bless Her. i do worship Her.

i am very fortunate. It’s more than i deserve. Nonetheless, i am a pathetic sissy loser who is completely impotent and i love it. Yes, i am very fortunate. Thank You for everything Princess.

sissy blackmail for the Mistress

Does a male who wants to be a slave have an obligation to also allow himself to be blackmailed by the Mistress?

When a male wants to play at being a slave, he enters a world created by the Mistress. It’s a world built on Her intelligence, Her efforts, Her time, Her beauty, Her strength, Her years of training and experience, and Her valuable resources. Consequently, the Mistress has interests and assets to protect and the slave should always put the concerns of the Mistress first. This means becoming a slave or even simply playing a slave requires that he provide Her with an “insurance policy” so She has the upper hand at all times and can protect Herself. In my humble opinion, this can only be achieved by submitting to blackmail. Being a slave and blackmail go hand-in-hand.

So let’s move into the danger zone. Here are some ideas. First, submit a completed blackmail application provided by the Mistress. The application answers should be handwritten in blue ink. Next, submit ten sheets of paper. They should be blank except for your signature, in blue ink, at the bottom of each. The extra sheets are for creating a backup original or extras if the printer jams so that Mistress can print just whatever She damn well pleases. Remember. Your signature is on the document.

Now for the amusement ride. Complete a model’s release form and buckle up! Submit a video of you stripped naked with humiliating phrases (e.g., i’m a queer cock sucker) and revealing information (e.g., your work phone number) written in magic marker all over your body from head to foot. Pictures are really inadequate since it can be alleged that they were doctored with Photoshop, etc. Make a video. The video should involve you masturbating, eating your cum and generally making a fool of yourself by doing things such as dancing like a ballerina and singing “i’m a little queer pot, here’s my spout (as you jerk your tiny cock) … “ It should be 10-15 minutes long and shot so your entire body appears in frame at all times.

Submit a list that includes your user ids and passwords for your computer, all of your email accounts and any online communities (e.g., fetlife.com) you belong to. Next, submit a set of keys to your residence so She can stop by your house at Her convenience while you’re at work and go through your personal effects. It’s a great way for Her to dig Her claws deeper. There’s an upside to all this. You get to enjoy the excitement of being put in a compromising position, feeling your heart beat race mixed with fear and exhilaration, to hear Her say “you’re really screwed now, little man”.

So, just how much do you adore Her? How far are you willing to go to protect Her. 

sissy