Humiliation: An Essay in Honor of Princess Kali

by sissy slave

The basis of shame is not some personal mistake of ours, but the ignominy, the humiliation we feel that we must be what we are without any choice in the matter, and that this humiliation is seen by everyone.

Milan Kundera, Immortality

Humiliation, especially ritualized humiliation, can make this sissy feel emotionally vulnerable and deepens the level of submission. The effect can be intoxicating and hypnotic. It is very similar to an increasing build up in an intense level of corporal punishment. At one point, the pain may almost be unbearable. After that point, however, the desire for more intense punishment is almost insatiable. Emotionally, it can feel as if the personality is being stripped away, exposing a very primitive, passive and simple creature. Physically, the body can shake and feel weak.

This sissy uses the phrase “ritualized humiliation” to describe scenarios that are like little dramatic plays (simple humiliation is ad hoc and whimsical like a casual spit in the face of the slave). For example, in one of this sissy’s humiliation fantasies, the key players involve several Dominant Females, a sissy and this sissy, as well as an audience. The setting is a play party. Three Dominant Females are sitting on a couch. They are gorgeous and dressed in sexy, fetish clothing. They see this sissy, beckon me over and engage me in conversation. The initially friendly conversation soon turns to verbal abuse as one of the three with a very sharp wit takes the lead. She starts by asking if this sissy has a girlfriend. She discovers that the sissy is not only heterosexual without any prospects, but is a virgin. She mockingly suggests that She can help this sissy correct this situation and find a “girlfriend”. At the party is another sissy. She calls her over. This sissy is then ordered to kiss and caress the other sissy. The situation escalates and the other sissy is ordered to raise her skirt while this sissy is ordered to kneel before the sissy. This sissy is then ordered to pull down her panties, to kiss and lick her balls as well as the shaft of her cock. Finally, as the cock gets hard, she is ordered to suck it.

While this is happening, the Dominant Females are laughing and making insulting comments. The other people at the party are also laughing. The element of verbal abuse, or what this sissy likes to refer as “verbal castration”, is essential. Words such as “sissy”, “fairy”, “pansy” “pathetic”, “cock-sucker”, “queer”, “faggot”, and “loser” are essential. They tell the sissy that this is her new girlfriend. They tell this sissy that she does not deserve to be with a real Woman and never will. This sense of inadequacy and exclusion is essential. Verbal humiliation can wound more deeply than strokes from a whip. It is best served with condescension, a mocking inflection in the voice and devilish laughter.

These rituals form an emotional prison. They are played over and over. Perhaps more than a prison, they create are an emotional blanket to which this sissy can retreat. The Dominant Females are untouchable and invincible. They are Goddesses and form the basis of humiliation in every such ritual. They are highly erotic, arousing a sexual desire that must not and cannot be fulfilled. The arousal is countered by threats of castration by the Dominant Females. Humiliation through threats of being castrated, forms an undercurrent in these scenarios. The formula is simple and ironic. This sissy is aroused and the consequence is “castration”. Ultimately, humiliation is irony.